Family

  • Family

    Idk

    I’m ready to hit the road. Leave it all behind and disappear for a while. I wonder though if I could really do this. It’s complicated and not like me. Admit it. 2020 was a shit show. I survived with my job and health. And 2021 is nothing but blue skies and bubblegum. I once wrote long ago that I lost something. Never have I gained clarity of what that something was. Never really looked I guess. Just sorta living day to day and letting life figure itself out. My Dad had a saying…. Unfulfilled needs. Might be misremembering this cause I fucking have no clue what I am saying…

  • Family,  Life

    Dad’s Photos

    My Dad was a 35mm camera junky. Many years ago he started scanning them to get them digital. His attention to detail wasn’t fantastic, but at least we now have them accessible. During one of his house cleanouts all those cartridges of 100’s of slides got tossed out. Kinda sad actually. Scanning them made them redundant. Once or twice a year, he’d drag out the projector and we’d all sit around and relive all the places we had been. Simpler times for sure. One day I’ll do the same with all the prints in all the albums. It’s good to have memories.

  • car,  Family,  Life

    Learning To Drive

    Where I work has a big ol’ off-the-beaten-path 400 car parking lot. It sits empty pretty much. Today I witnessed a girl learning to ride a bike. Not judging but she looked to be about 14 or 17…. it -was- from a distance. Mom and Dad were eagerly yelling instructions out. Fun times. I first drove a car with the blessing of my Mom. I tagged along with her and Pam, who had her permit and needed practice. Marshdale Elementary parking lot. I remember it well. I spent time on the tether ball court while they did what they did, not really paying much attention. Mom was pretty patient, and there were no…

  • Family,  Life

    Struggles

    The wheel chair photo was taken in March 2018. My father was in the hospital dealing with his newly diagnosed cancer. The photo of Mom and Dad was taken in March 2012 in California. We took a trip out to San Diego. Good Memories.

  • Family,  Life

    A final note about 2020

    A long rambling post without much point other than to say what’s in my head. It’s the last day of the year and it seems appropriate. 2021 is a day closer. This shit being over is a day closer. If we don’t remember, we are doomed to repeat. On January 7th, I got my Passport for an expected trip to Australia. I was excited and both Mom and Dad were excited for me to go, but it took them prodding me for months before I said yes to the trip. Almost every phone call Mom would ask, When are you going? April! Ticket was purchased all things GO! I was…

  • The Family Christmas Tree
    Family,  Life

    The Family Tree

    One of my favorite Christmas memories is of the family tree. It was never anything polished or perfect with 100 generic bows, perfectly placed lights, and many same Christmas balls. It was unique. Each ornament had a story. A mismatched set of all the unfit Christmas ornaments gathered over the years. Hand made by little hands or carefully chosen because they were cute. Some indeed mass produced. Every year a few more added. Each kid had our favorites and we always got to hang them with care. We had three extra special ones. A big glass ball with each of our names in glitter. Paige, Pam, and Scott. Always the…

  • Family,  Tattoo

    Let’s talk Tattoos again

    I really do like the art. Someday I might have a full sleeve of just black and gray. I have no idea what that is yet, but when the idea hits, I am going to do it. Geisha girl, dragon, waves, Tō-ji temple. I’m just not sure yet. I had been holding on to this card from my Mom for a number of years. Took a snap of it to cause I knew the card would get lost, or I would not be able to find it. Sure enough, I even had to hunt for the photo. It wasn’t impulsive, just quickly decided. Was it the covid crazy? Not really.…

  • Family,  Tattoo

    I did a bad thing

    It’s been 6 years since I got my first tattoo. Then a few months later I got my second. Always thought about the next but never really pressed the issue. Until now. I’m not a tattoo guy in the traditional sense. I see ink on others and I don’t judge, but I wonder what their thoughts were in some of their choices. Others that I see I am amazed in everything… the color, the design, the location… a living work on flesh. There can be true beauty in a tattoo. I remember my first time in a tattoo parlor. I was 17 or 18. Mr. Wizards on Colfax. Not the…